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Thursday, March 17, 2011
Dear found out about my bites on my arms.. I don't think it's obvious but don't know why he noticed it.. I just can't helped but to bite myself to feel the pain, perhaps the pain on my arms will help erased the pain in my heart..
I asked if he wanted to accompany me & he readily agreed but I got to realised he thought I asked him to accompany me for dinner.. I really want him to accompany for the day & not just for dinner.. But well.. Sigh..
I know I've to let go no matter how hard it's gonna be.. It's my choice.. I knew this day would come & I gotta be strong.. Perhaps I should really let time heal everything & give him time to let go everything then I can start afresh with him.
Told Dear I'll change but he say if I'm willing, I would have done that long ago & if I were to change for him, I won't be happy as it's in me so things will start all over again in the near future.. Told him I'm telling him I will means I will.. I've thought it through & nothing matters more than him.. And that's why the decision..
Told Mandy what Dear told me about what he dislike about.. Girly told me if it's her, she'll not be happy too.. She told me, isn't it better this way that we don't quarrel anymore & why would I wanna change the current situation? True enough.. Dear also have the same feeling.. He's also afraid of getting hurt again.. I knew I've hurt him too deeply.. The feeling is exactly the same like what I fear.. But the thought of losing him forever is like a pierce piercing through my heart.. The pain is excruciating..
Dear said if we are meant to be, we will still to be together in future.. I know but it's just damn pain! Now I'm just going all out to do anything that can make him stay..
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