Friday, March 11, 2011

Was waiting for his call & he finally called.. Told him I felt like going over, he said nastily: "Come over for what?! When we were together, u never want to come & now I want to." But then why did he let me go over after the TW trip & not now?

I told him how I was feeling but he sounded indifferent.. I bet he must have hated me though he told me he didn't.. He asked me to think about how I treated him this 1 year.. I seriously don't know what I did.. I did neglect him but I never treat him badly..

He said that now that without me, he can do whatever he like/want without having to worry about anything.. I asked if he's happier without me & he said he is.. So I'm really right to leave him & to make him a happier person.. I should be glad that my intention was answered but I'm not coz it will means the chances of us being together again is lower.. He kept holding the fact that I ever told him we were world apart due to our perspectives/values but he still don't understand that I broke up not coz of this but coz we could not solve our difference & it's hurting the both of us.. Rather than hurting each other, why don't we just put a halt to all the hurting? And in order to stop the hurt, breaking up will be the best solution..

He mentioned that when I needed him, I'll look for him & if I don't, I'll not be bothered about him.. I don't know what made him think that way but if I don't care, would I even bother to call him everytime I wake up? Would I even buy him some thing he likes when I see it? No!! It's coz I care & that's why he's always the 1st person that came to my mind when I needed him.. I could just approached any other person for help but I didn't..

I can't accept anyone even up till now coz I can't get over him.. He's always on my mind.. I just want to be with him & no one else.. No one can ever replace his place in my heart.. He's someone special to me & someone I love dearly..