Sunday, March 06, 2011
I wanted Dear badly to be stay with me for a movie but he didn't want to.. I can't hold back any longer so I cried in front of him.. When he left, I can't stop crying..
I texted him telling him how felt & he asked me what I wanted him to do. Told him I merely wanted to tell him what I'm feeling & he replied "This is what u wanted, be strong.." When I asked if he still loves me, he say's he don't know.. Upon hearing this, my heart just sank.. I was became so lost.. Coz don't know to me is he don't love me anymore.. Just that he don't know how to break it to me..
I wanted to tell him so much that I wanted him back at times but I know it sounds silly.. He would feel that I'm fooling his feelings but I'm not.. I just love him too much that I didn't want to hurt him.. I merely wanted to be myself when being with him. I do not want to hide my true self from him, that's too fake.. I may please him but in long run, I'll be suffocating.. But can he accept for who I am?
He' no longer mine.. If I kept crying over the fact that he's already not mine, how long must I cry? Yes, he's right, I really need to learn to be strong.. To be a stronger person..
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