Thursday, April 07, 2011
I broke down once again last night.. This morning I broke down & hid in the cubicle to cry after realising Dear deleted the album "Together" where it contained all our photos in FB. I can't helped but to ask him. He was quite shocked when I asked that & replied "What album?" Told him about it & he replied "Don't know, never do anything". Told him it's gone and the album name was "Together" & he said "Don't know, never go see photo. Anyway, photo all in my com.." There's nothing I can do but just digressed my topic after that. I felt the hurt.. I know he already have a new life but still it hurts alot alot.. I don't know I'll be able to act tough in front of everyone.. It's already at my maximum yet I'm still trying.. I know there's no point to do anything now but if I can turn back time, I'll never ever want to leave Dear coz I really love him and losing him is the most torturing thing that can happened to me.. Sometimes, some things are just to late to realise and change for the better.. Once you've missed it, you'll never gonna have a chance again.. Been dreaming of him every night.. Every waking moments is as torturing.. I'll kept thinking about alot of things.. About his new life, our past, our future (if we are still together), things that I planned to do with him & alot alot more..
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